A Heart Personified...

Well well..i find myself blogging within a week...i guess its the thing i read which helped me into it..was jus goin thru one of the blogs..and found a few heart touching lines...they mite not appeal to the usual fun-loving bloggers nor the happy-go-lucky ones who wanna read them...but i'm sure ppol who have gone thru them will really knoe wat it feels like to pen down such lines..chek them out..

I CRIED TODAY....

[ From the blog of warm sunshine..posted at http://warmsunshine.rediffiland.com/iland/warmsunshine.html on 31/06/2006]

After you walked out,
I cried today.
For all the broken promises
For all the shattered dreams

For all the pain you put me through
For all the hurt I put up with

For all the faith I had in you
For all the trust broken by you

For all that was said
For all that was left unsaid

For all our memories
For all our possibilities

For all the love you couldn’t handle
For all the tenderness you couldn’t feel

I cried for you
I cried for me
And I cried for us
Most of all,I cried for what you lost
......

Thts most the lines from tht page...thers one last line...the punch line...which is devastating..yes really is...makes all these lines even more powerful...we'll..i wont post tht line..bcus i want you all to read what it is..do chek out the link...and do comment..such lines which express are really hard to come by these days..

lastly..on a formal note..i appreciate warm sunshine.Well one more thing..i dint take her permission to post her lines...but i thot she wudnt mind if i take ppol to her page..

Friends,friendship and snehith...

It is amazing how fast the journey of life passes.Memories of my last friendship day are still looming large in ma mind and i find tht already an year has passed by..phew..quite fast these days huh..

Friendship and friends have always been the most important part of my lifre.I've been tht kind of a person who,i honestly can admit, can do anything for a friend within my limits.It's not that i'm exaggerating maself.But such has been the significance i've given and i give to friendship and friends.I'm tht kind of a guy who loves to be in tht "kool group" ..who hang 'round in groups and like a gang..and support one another in time of need..in any kind.and i'm also tht fello who likes to be in the midst of "bookworms"..yea the ppol who study well..and to compete with them and study well too.In the process of balancing both the acts..i find myself no where..neither here..nor there..I find tht every person in my class has his/her own seperate grp of friends outside..other than the ones in the class.But for me,the ppol whom i meet daily are my friends,my group and my world.

Time teaches ppol what to expect from whom and what not to expect from one.If i go down the memory lane and rewind myself one year back..it was the very day i hurt my very best friend..My life has changed so much after that.I've changed personally,emotionally..but my care and my likeness for my best friend havn't even budged and inch.I realised that once you hurt sumone,even thoh unintentionally and even thoh in an eagerness of not losing tht person who had become so precious to you,things will not be the same. I've pondered over many a nights thinking why i am like this..and why does it always happen to me..and why i aint being able to try being and enjoy with my other friends when my best friend ignores me..but the fact remains that a buddy is a buddy.No matter how many come and go,he/she will always be you first choice..

Well thts where i want to put fwd my view..for me best friend is one whom you luk upto first in any matter..be it be happiness or sorrow..to share a secret..to tell about anything tht bothers you..to fight..to laugh..to take care..to sit uietly and understand what the other is going thru.For me a best friend is one who is very close to your heart,and who sees you in a very special position intheir life.I put my best friend in all these..always.

Recently,my mom got transferred outta station and all her friends arranged a shmall farewell party for her..her best friend gave her a letter..which when i read,was really moved by the content..she and my mom have been together in the best and worst times..and i always felt ahppy tht my mom had such a gr8 friend.
True friendship ,according to me,is the utmost relation ever present.If the heart is involved in it,then it transforms into a beautiful relation which excels all other relations..even love.



My friends have an opinion on me, or rather( if i put the blame on myself), my behaviour has created an impression wid them tht i always wanna be alone and away from the crowd..the fact here remains tht i fluctuate according to my moods..and when ppol fail to get my point of view, i tend to spend time alone..what i feel bad is tht no one tries to think from my point of view..and what saddens me is tht no one gets the correct prsopective.I often find myself alone..for which,my best friend says, i have myself to blame.Yes,i do have self respect,and when i feel i have a correct point..i stand on it.But when i dont get support,in fear of being left out..i finally step down.

My heart is weak in matters of all this friendship,luv,care,possesivemess etc etc friends..i tend to expect a few..and seldom do i get them my way..in which case dissapointment sets in.In my last one year,i've learnt such things.But what drices me still..is the fact tht my friendship is strong..the care which i shoed and wanna show is pure and the liking is real.For me..my best friend is everything.

just one point i wid like to make bfore i sign off..is tht never ever hurt your close friends..your buddies.may it be intentional or unintentional.Not all can be lucky in case of sparing the rod.To my best friend ..i apologise on this friendship day..for hurting her not once but twice..She'll always be my best buddy fr life.To all my friends..i apologise.If ever i had hurt anyone.I value friends a lot,and always wish to be a true friend of everyone..and justify my name.

"The hardest moment in life is not that when you lose something and cry over it and feel bad..but its the one when you lose something and still manage a smile "

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY EVERYUN !!

A page from my worn out poem's book...

This happens to be one of those pages which i've treasured for long..not a poem..but a few lines.. which were like self-explanatory to me at a time when loneliness in my lyf was at its peak..during my teens..Even today wenever i read these lines..a tear happens to leave me...

A LONELY ODE

Oh God ! Why do you let me live ?
Where nobody likes me..where my loneliness takes over me
Why do you let me exist..where my eyes are filled with tears of sorrow..
My child ! You are not alone..i am there with you
And along with me,the whole world is with you
You shud live..to make your birth successful
You are mine my child..always mine.
But..why do you leave me alone at my times of sorrow
And when I feel lonely
You have not given me another companion
So that i can feel happy for myself about it
I dint leave you my child
It was the time when I was with you
And it was nature my child,not me
Who has not given you a companion
I Like those shouts of
"Brother..hey dear brother "
Which keep ringing in my ears..
But those are only dream..which can never come true
If there would be another life to me..
Let me be born with a companion so that
I can share my life,my happiness
My sorrows,my anger,my distress
with them.
---------- 9th october' 1998.


Not the date of the page..

You got to do wot you got to do

Nice to find maself blogging again...dunno why for a month or so i lost interest in blogging..can site many reasons for tht of course..firstly the tiring an boring "on the head" sem exams which tuk their toll on me for a fortnight..and then in ma vacation..the never ending saga of orkutting and being online till late nites..u guys mite be saying "Can't u spare a few mins writing a few lines for the sake of ur own blog ?? "..are bhai...maine kaha nah..interest ich nahin tha [:p]...

But then i did do justice using my broadband connection to dwnld quite a few e buks--of which one being The Da Vinci Code --which has been in the news for all the reasons..the disclaimer thing,A certificate,agitations,SONY pictures ,Tom hanks and wot not...Happened to make maself free for a few hrs to read a part of the buk..and was really engrossed in the character of Robert Langdon..and the mystic world of the Musee du Louvre.I always had a fascination for the french language and after reading a part of tis buk,felt like going for a fe classes too.

Other than sittin in frnt of the system all day and coolin my heels in front of the cooler..i don find maself doin anything much for most of the time on most of the days..stil a loong month to go bfore the college starts...so kinda chalkin out plans of how to beat the heat..

Life's seems boring at the moment..

"Mirchi" ka tadka..

Well..it seems like hyderabad has finally come of age...jus got up today morning to find in a newspaper wat wud be i feel a kinda revolution in hyderabad...Radio Mirchi friends...its in hyderabad...

It has come up with a tag line "Idi chala hot guru"...and its a 95FM...i'm sure hyderabadis and music lovers over her must hav been waiting tis for looong...I've been listening to it from morning and behind me my parents wondering how come i've entered into their territory..since both of my parents work in AIR..i've been waking up to AIR's suprabhatam since my childhood and from recently to the "Rainbow FM" of AIR...but now..it wud been a fight between them and me i'm sure ;)..

It's not right i feel to compare the private FM wid the AIR FM bcus u knw wat..these govt ppol really have a lot of restrictions regarding their broadcast...they shudn't spell out any companies names in their programs..they shudnt broadcast new songs until and unless they have an agreement..and no new songs shud be broadcasted for more duration..and only songs from cds of audio companies with whom they have collaboration ..and wat nott..i've got to know tht recently wen they put up a song frm a new movie..it seems tht the producer of the movie called up and questioned the authorities..the same fella wudnt do it in case of a private FM...i've been listening to almost all latest chartbusters in mirchi from morning...Rainbow FM hasnt done bad either from its starting and even it has been broadcasting or atleast trying to broadcast new hits..but its just the restrictions tht pull them back...but in the presentation aspect i agree they have to improve to match up the increasing competition..

But Mirchi is definitely HOT ppoll..."wow" is the word i spelt first wen i heard it..the promos have been outta the ordinary and the presentation is as usual funky and kool..i've long aspired to become a RJ...i will definitely try to sneak in into tis one.."RJ Snehith"..hey how does it luk..nice na ;) :p

Radio mirchi is sure to touch the pulse of the youth and the heart of the old..:) In the near future,Radio City..a hot favourite of the banglorites (or shud i call bangalurites as per the proposed change of name ??) is even set to take ground here in Hyderabad..It wud mean more competition..and more competition between them is wat WE require right ?? :)

From Hyderabad biryani to the "seedha lelo" tag line..from the "memu inthe bhay" to the banglore-hyderabad tackle..Mirchi has already acquired all the ingredients to make it bigg..so ppol..it dosent matter if its a world space radio or a normal FM set..be it be a "Radio" on ur mobile phone or the radio in ur mp3 player..Set the frequency and get ready to sizzle..bcus the era of FM radio is here in Hyderabad..and its sure going to give ur mp3 players,discmans and ur ipods..a run for their money...NJOY

Potraits..

Well..sorry everyun..i'm just not posting much...not that i dont have time..and not that i have time either ;) ..so thats how the situation is to me at the moment..i wanted to post something very nice but just cudnt write anyting...but this one's definitely is special for me..

These are a few of those lines for which i compliment myself a bit...(well..self appraisal might be injurious many a times but sometimes thats wat makes us feel better na :D )..coming to the point..you might find this "poem" on the gloomier side..but i love it because i imagined myself as the character in here and blended my thots in accordance with wat i thought that person might be feeling...

My lines go something like this...

As i sat over the light blue hills
The memory of my beloved thrills
Beneath the palm trees,by the river side
I was all alone,in the whole world wide.

Whenever i think of those very dear
Whose hate tells me a tale of sorrow
I always hoped to have someone to cheer
From whom i can,the sweetest comforts borrow.

The wind from the woods softly came
Softly it blew aside the lampfire flame
Clear was the song of the pigeon in the bower
And sweet was the fragrance of the jasmine flower.

Why is life without merry
where the mind is between a laugh and a tear
The potraits of life i've clearly seen
In all these years,a mere.

Hearts love only for a while
and friendship seldom runs for miles
The love of the dear and the friendship of the near
are like forgotten moments and the last goodbyes.

There is some sweetness in every pain
But there is a pain wherever i lain
What can i do to drive away
the remembrance from my eyes..??
Oh philosopher ! Tell me..
Where shall i learn to get my peace again ?

--Snehith.

I promise..next time around..my post will not be my poem..:p.. c ya soon..!! adieous..

Life..

Life sees so many ups ans downs.It's just like a roller coaster ride at every corner .Relations ,commitments,understandings,love,care,
misunderstandings, trust..these are few things which engulf a person's course of life. Life sometimes becomes so unrealistic that after a hearty laugh..we sit down and wonder "Hey was that me ?? " .Time and tide wait for none they say.As we pass along life's path..we come to know few things about which we might have had a different opinion in the past but had been compelled to change our views keeping in mind the context of the issue and its proximity to reality.Most people have no courage to express their views...in fear that their commitment to a particular point would leave them into troubled waters.. Few people tend to expect more and when their expectations arent fulfilled and things dont go the way they wish them to...disappointment sets in..which further leads to a sense of pessimism in them.We feel like we aren't getting the things we are wishing for..and gettings things we never would have liked to have.Behind the eyes lie so many dreams..dreams so unrealistic ,which if get to be real in our life would mean an extrordinary case of human realisation.Time ticks away..seconds fly..Hope is the only thing that remains.
Strength of the heart is no longer a virtue.Its the mind which rules.Heart is often found stranded at a cross road without any direction...we feel like we are in vaccum.However tough we may try to be..but softcorners are unavoidable.People whom we want dont come to us..and people who like us seldom impress us..a sad state of affairs..all matters of the heart are really are.How often in a relation u feel that "This is the end of it"..? Many a times i guess. On the other hand ,in life,u feel the end is too far..but tell me friends..we do feel many a times to put an end to it..in disgustion.Aint i right ? A plunge into the valley of disappointment,loneliness and distress definitely hurts..but what can we do ?The much we try to avoid it..the more it plunges deeper..the deeper the cut..the painer the wound...isnt it ? But in between u feel something blossooming..something beautiful which we cant express but can just relish..We feel more mature..a feeling of joy surrounds us..we feel like on cloud nine and touching the colourful rainbow of mirth..words flow like the falls from the mountains..the eyes twinkle like the stars in the skies..the mind gets occupied with something like a cool breeze..with that soft touche..It's upto us to savour those moments..and take Life as it comes by...

{ I dont mind if u rate this as a lecture or as a paragraph without meaning..but i'm sure it is correct upto a quite a distance...i wud say " Bas ab shabdon ko chod do..unke peeche chipe hue feelings ko mehsoos karo " ;) }

The Dark..

It's a magical world of its own..the mystical feeling never dies down..and it engulfs life into the clutches of imagination..the puzzling sense of gloominess looms large when you sight the stretching blanket of the stars..its the world of the dark..the world of surreal dreams and the weird nightmares..




It's a world of numbness and sober
we find everywhere only the shades of grey
Darkness is the virtue of the thinking mind
for which the disturbed soul is a prey .


Defeated hearts dwell in the dark
as they ponder over their ill stricken fate
It's time for the pessimists to take charge
to cry silently over the ignorance of their mate


The lovers relish the elegance of the dark
as they silently wish in the shadows of the night
Their thoughts race quickly to their soul mate
as they believe ,in their love they can find delight..


He compares the dark to the essence of her hair
She remembers his compliments on that candle light dinner
He finds her as the moon in the somber sky
and she endorses him as her heart's winner..


The dark is the horror of the small child
The mere thought of which makes him fear
The dreary and shady gloominess of the night
Always make him stick to someone dear..


The soft breeze dwells in the hollowness of the dark
Ghostly trees await the arrival of the knave
The prince of the dark reigns supreme
In this cruel world. ,quiet as a grave..

--Snehith.

But its life as usual for the unsighted..the blind..Nothing different,nothing new.Their world's essence had always been the same..but they see light in the same dark..the sense a ray of opportunity in watever they feel can be achieved by them.. they enlighten their world with the spark of determination and give no chance of pessimism to set in.. i think we should take inspiration from these people.."whose alphabets dont start with A B C D..but with B L A C K "...